When Vows Tangle with Family Ties

The church smells like lilies and old hymnals. My tuxedo jacket is too tight across my shoulders—a rental, ill-fitted. I stare at the back of my stepfather’s head, three pews up, and try to focus on the sacred words being spoken. But my attention, like a compass needle swinging true north, keeps finding her.

Ava.

My stepsister. Though we’ve never called each other that, not seriously. It was always just her name, a single syllable that felt like a held breath. Ava.

She’s across the aisle, one row behind me, sitting with her mother and her mother’s new husband. My dad, the man with the broad shoulders I’m currently watching, married her mom four years ago. It created a sprawling, messy, blended family tree that never quite felt like it had room for both of us on the same branch.

Today, the family is out in force for my cousin Chloe’s wedding. A sea of pastel dresses and proud smiles. And Ava is a storm cloud in navy silk. The dress is simple, sleeveless, with a neckline that hints at the curve of her breasts without revealing them. It ends just above her knees, showing off legs that are tan and crossed at the ankle. She looks bored, restless, a panther at a garden party. Her dark hair is twisted up, but a few escaped strands curl against the long line of her neck. I watch her trace the embossed pattern on the wedding program with a single, unpainted fingernail. I know what that nail feels like. A stupid, intrusive memory from five years ago, before our parents even met, surfaces: her hand on my arm at a college party, that nail digging in as she laughed at something I said. A spark. Extinguished before it could catch.

The memory is crisp, a short film reel that still plays in my head. It was my senior year, her junior, at different schools. A mutual friend’s off-campus house, beer sticky on the floor. She was arguing about some indie film, her hands cutting the air, and she turned to me for backup. “You get it, right?” Her eyes were fierce, intelligent, pulling me into her orbit. I said something sarcastic, and she laughed, her fingers gripping my forearm, that bare nail pressing a half-moon into my skin. For an hour, we were the only people in the room. We exchanged numbers. I texted her once, a lame joke about the movie. She replied with a winking emoji. Then silence. Then, three months later, my dad sat me down with a photograph. “I’ve met someone, son. And she has a daughter, Ava. You might even know her from school?” The universe, with its sick sense of humor, had drawn a line in permanent ink.

The ceremony ends in a blur of organ music and rustling fabric. We’re swept outside into the humid June afternoon, blinking in the sunlight. The reception is at a rustic-chic barn on the edge of town, all twinkling lights and exposed beams. I grab a whiskey sour from a passing tray and plant myself near the bar, a safe vantage point.

“You look like you’re on surveillance duty.”

Her voice is low, a little smoky. She appears beside me, holding a glass of champagne. Up close, the navy of her dress makes her grey eyes look almost silver.

“Just taking it all in,” I say, my voice coming out rougher than I intended. “The happy couple.”

“Mmm,” she hums, sipping her drink. Her eyes scan the room. “They look blissful. It’s nauseating.”

“You don’t believe in it?”

“In what? The performance?” She gestures with her glass, a sharp, economical movement that is pure New York. “The dress, the cake, the promise of forever? I believe in the open bar. That’s about it.”

There’s a brittleness to her I don’t remember. A new sharpness, honed by city life. We haven’t spent more than five minutes alone together since the awkward “blending” holidays. Those were exercises in forced politeness, our parents watching us with hopeful, anxious eyes, willing us to be friends. We were cordial. Distant. And the space between us crackled with everything unsaid, every glance that lasted a second too long.

“How’s New York?” I ask, because it’s safe.

“Loud. Expensive. Mine.” She turns those silver eyes on me. She has a way of holding eye contact that feels like a physical touch, a challenge. “How’s… here?”

“Quiet. Predictable. Not mine,” I admit. I stayed in our hometown, took over my dad’s small architecture firm when he semi-retired. It feels like playing a part in a play I didn’t audition for.

“I can see that,” she says softly, and for a second, it’s just us in the crowded barn. Then her mother, my stepmom Carol, descends with a hug for me and an adjustment to Ava’s hair.

“You two should mingle!” Carol chirps. “Ava, your cousin Michael is here, he just got a promotion at the bank…”

Ava gives me a look that’s pure exhaustion before she’s swept away. I feel the loss of her presence like a drop in barometric pressure.

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Dinner is a long, noisy affair. Speeches that drone on, clinking cutlery, the scent of roast chicken and wilted salad. I’m seated between my great-aunt Mildred and a friend of the bride I’ve never met. Ava is diagonally across from me, next to her banking cousin. He’s talking with his hands, leaning in. She’s nodding, a polite smile fixed on her face, but her foot is tapping a frantic rhythm under the table. Her eyes keep flicking to me, then away.

During the best man’s speech, which is laden with embarrassing frat boy stories, our eyes lock and hold. A secret smile touches her lips—not the polite one, a real one, fleeting and knowing. It’s a bolt of lightning straight to my gut. I look down at my hands, my knuckles white around my water glass. This is insane. She’s my stepsister. It’s a line drawn in blood and legal paperwork. A line I’ve spent years conscientiously not crossing.

But the line feels thinner tonight, blurred by whiskey and wedding magic and the way her dress shifts on her body when she breathes.

After the cake is cut, the DJ cranks up the music. The dance floor fills with aunties and uncles doing the Electric Slide. I escape to the patio, lit by strings of bulb lights. The air is cooler out here, thick with the smell of cut grass and honeysuckle.

I’m not alone for long.

“Hiding?” She leans against the railing beside me, having shed her heels. She’s barefoot on the flagstones, looking younger, more like the girl from the party.

“Something like that.”

“Me too.” She sighs, tilting her head back. The lights paint gold on her throat. “I forgot how these things are. Everyone in your business. ‘When are you settling down, Ava? You’re not getting any younger.’ As if my value is on a depreciation schedule.”

“They don’t know you,” I say, and it comes out more fiercely than I mean it to.

She looks at me, her gaze searching. “Do you?”

The question hangs between us, charged and dangerous. “I used to think I did.”

“Before.”

“Before.”

We’re quiet for a moment, listening to the distant thump of a bassline and the laughter spilling from the barn.

“I almost didn’t come,” she confesses, her voice barely above a whisper. “Because of this.”

“This?”

“This… tension. This thing that’s been in the room since the day our parents introduced us. This stupid, impossible thing.” She wraps her arms around herself, but it doesn’t look like she’s cold. “It’s exhausting to pretend it’s not there.”

My heart is hammering against my ribs. “What if we stopped pretending?”

Her eyes widen. “Cole…”

“Just for tonight. Just… acknowledge it.” I take a step closer. The scent of her perfume—jasmine and something darker, like sandalwood—wraps around me. “What harm could it do?” Even as I say it, I know I’m playing with fire. I’m building a house of cards on a fault line.

She shakes her head, a quick, tense movement. “You know what harm. We lay a finger on this, and the whole fragile family sculpture comes crashing down. My mother looks at you like the son she never had. Your father… God, he’d look at me like I corrupted you.”

“We’re not children. We’re not corrupting anything that wasn’t already there.” My voice is low, urgent. “That night at the party, Ava. That was real. Before any of this.”

“That’s the worst part!” she hisses, her composure slipping. “It was real. And then it got folded into this… this domestic fiction. We got put in the same mental drawer labeled ‘family,’ and it’s suffocating.” She rubs her temple, a gesture of pure fatigue. “So we just live like this? For the next thirty years? Smiling across the Thanksgiving table, making polite conversation at Christmas, until we’re old and bitter and wondering what the hell happened to our lives?”

“No,” I say, the word definitive. “Not tonight. Tonight, we step out of the fiction.”

“And do what?” The challenge is back in her eyes, but beneath it is a yearning so profound it makes my chest ache.

“Talk. Where no one can see us. Where we don’t have to perform.”

She lets out a short, humorless laugh. “Talk. Right.”

“Start with that,” I insist.

“And if talking isn’t enough? If it just makes the want worse?” She’s backing me into a corner, demanding I say the unsayable.

“Then we deal with that. But we deal with it honestly, for once. Not as stepsiblings. As the people we were supposed to be.”

She looks away, out into the dark garden. I can see the battle on her face, in the tight line of her jaw, the flutter of a pulse at the base of her throat. The reluctant one, the one who needs to be persuaded, not because she doesn’t want it, but because the consequences are so vast. And that reluctance is the most potent aphrodisiac I’ve ever known.

“One night,” she says, testing the words like they’re made of glass. “One night where the rules don’t apply. Where we exist outside of them.”

“Yes.”

“And in the morning?”

“In the morning, we go back.” The words taste like a betrayal, even as I say them.

She’s silent for a long minute. The music inside swells. I see my father and Carol through the barn doors, swaying together, her head on his shoulder. A perfect picture. The guillotine hanging over our heads.

“My hotel room,” she says finally, the words barely audible. “It’s ten minutes away. A generic box. No history.”

“Okay.”

“We don’t leave together. You wait. You say your goodbyes.” Her instructions are clipped, efficient. She’s planning the operation, minimizing the risk. “Room 312.”

“Ava.” I reach out, my fingers almost brushing her bare arm. She flinches, but doesn’t pull away. “Thank you.”

“Don’t,” she says, her voice cracking. “Don’t thank me. This is a terrible idea. We both know it.”

But she turns and walks back inside, barefoot, leaving her heels on the patio stones. A part of her, abandoned.

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I wait ten minutes, an eternity measured in heartbeats. I make my rounds, saying my goodbyes with claps on the back and cheek kisses. I tell my dad I have a headache. He’s flushed and happy, his arm around Carol, and barely registers my words. As I’m shrugging on my suit jacket, my Aunt Susan grabs my elbow. “You and Ava seemed to be having a nice chat outside,” she says, her eyes bright with innocent curiosity. My blood runs cold. “Just catching up,” I say, my smile feeling like a grimace. “She’s so grown up!” Susan trills, and I nod, extracting myself, the near-miss ringing in my ears.

The hotel is a generic chain on the highway. My palms are slick on the steering wheel. Every rational part of my brain is screaming that this is a catastrophic idea. The other part, the part thrumming with a need so deep it feels ancestral, is in control.

Her room is on the third floor. I knock softly. The door opens almost immediately, as if she was standing right behind it.

She’s changed out of the navy dress. She’s wearing loose grey sweatpants and a thin white tank top. No bra. The sight is so intimate, so disarmingly casual, it steals my breath. Her hair is down now, a dark cascade over her shoulders. She looks vulnerable and fierce all at once.

She steps back wordlessly to let me in. The room is standard: king bed, generic landscape art, the hum of the AC.

The door clicks shut, and the world narrows to this sterile box. The tension from the wedding, simmering all day, is now a rolling boil between us. It’s so thick I can taste it, metallic and sweet.

“So,” she says, leaning against the desk, arms crossed defensively over her chest. “Talk.”

I lean against the wall by the door, putting physical distance between us, trying to keep my promise. “What do you want to talk about?”

“You tell me. You’re the one who wanted to ‘acknowledge the thing.’” She makes air quotes, but her hands are trembling slightly.

“I think about you,” I say, the confession ripped from me. “All the time. Not like a brother. Not even close.”

She swallows. “I know.”

“Do you think about me?”

She looks at the floor, at the hideous carpet. “Yes.” The word is so quiet I almost miss it. “It makes me feel… guilty. And angry. And so fucking frustrated.”

“Why frustrated?”

“Because it’s a dead end!” she bursts out, her composure cracking. She pushes off the desk and paces the small space. “There’s no path, Cole! We have a couple of secret trysts, we feel terrible, we ruin every family event for the rest of our lives because we can’t look at each other without remembering. My mother asks me why I’m so quiet, and I have to lie. Your father wonders why you’re always finding reasons to leave town for holidays.” She stops, her back to me, shoulders tense. “So I live with it. This low-grade fever of want. And I hate it. I hate that I can’t just turn it off.”

Her words are a bucket of cold reality. But they’re also an admission of desire so profound it mirrors my own. She wants. She just doesn’t see a path.

“What if the path isn’t forward or back?” I say, taking a careful step into the room. “What if it’s just… here? Tonight. No past, no future. Just this room. This moment. We take what we need, and in the morning, we go back to being stepsiblings. We lock this away.”

She turns, her grey eyes blazing. “You think we could do that? Just turn it off?”

“I think we’re both going crazy trying to keep it turned off. Maybe we need to… let it run its course. Get it out of our systems.”

It’s a flimsy rationale. A fantasy. But in the heat of this moment, it feels like the only possible logic.

“One night,” she repeats, testing the words. “No promises. No future. Just… release.”

“Just release,” I echo, my voice gravel.

Her resistance is crumbling. I can see it in the softening of her posture, the way her breath hitches. The hesitant one, needing to be led to the edge of the cliff she secretly wants to jump from.

She takes a step towards me. Then another. She stops an arm’s length away. “If we do this… we can’t be gentle, Cole. I don’t want gentle. I don’t want sweet. I’m so tired of pretending. I want to feel it. All of it. I want to forget every reason why we shouldn’t.”

A raw, primal thrill shoots through me. This is the permission I didn’t know I was waiting for. The unleashing.

“We can do that,” I say, my gaze dropping to her mouth. “We can forget.”

She closes the final distance. Her hands come up to fist in the lapels of my suit jacket—I’m still in the damn wedding tux—and she yanks me down to her level.

The first kiss isn’t tender. It’s a collision. A desperate, furious meeting of lips and teeth and tongue. It’s years of pent-up frustration erupting. She tastes like champagne and mint and vengeance. A small, wounded sound escapes her throat, and she presses her body flush against mine. Through the layers of our clothes, I can feel the heat of her, the softness of her breasts against my chest, the lean strength of her.

My hands come up to cradle her face, then tunnel into her thick hair, holding her to me as I devour her mouth. The kiss is all-consuming, a wildfire spreading from our joined lips through my entire nervous system. I back her towards the bed, our mouths never parting, a clumsy, passionate dance.

When the backs of her knees hit the mattress, she breaks the kiss, breathing ragged. Her eyes are wild, pupils blown wide. “The suit,” she pants. “Off. Now.”

Her command, so direct, so needy, sends another jolt through me. I shrug out of the jacket, let it fall to the floor. My tie is next, yanked off and discarded. She watches, her chest heaving, her nipples hard points against the thin cotton of her tank top. I toe off my shoes, then reach for her. My hands settle on her hips, feeling the soft give of the sweatpants, the sharp crest of her hip bones beneath. My architect’s mind, usually assessing lines and load-bearing structures, now catalogs her as a different kind of blueprint: the elegant cantilever of her collarbone, the perfect, weight-bearing curve of her spine, the inviting arch of her lower back.

“You too,” I murmur, and slide my hands under the hem of her tank top. Her skin is fever-hot, silken. I pull the shirt up and over her head. She lets me, her arms rising obediently. And then she’s bare from the waist up, and the air leaves my lungs.

She’s breathtaking. Full breasts, peaked with dusky pink nipples that are already taut. A faint sprinkling of freckles across her collarbones like a constellation. She doesn’t cover herself. She stands there, letting me look, a defiant, vulnerable goddess. Her physicality is all contained energy, like a drawn bowstring—the tension in her shoulders, the way she holds her chin high even now. This is the Ava who negotiates contracts in New York, not the placid stepsister at a family BBQ.

“You’re beautiful,” I say, the words inadequate.

“Don’t talk,” she whispers, and reaches for my belt. Her fingers are deft, surprisingly steady, all that city-sharp efficiency focused on this single task. She unbuckles it, pops the button of my trousers, lowers the zipper. The sound is obscenely loud in the quiet room. She pushes the fabric down over my hips, and I step out of it, kicking it aside. I’m left in my boxer briefs, achingly hard, the fabric straining.

Her eyes drop, and her lips part. She reaches out, not touching me, but tracing the air an inch from my erection. The ghost of a touch is maddening.

“Ava,” I groan, a warning and a plea.

That seems to snap her out of her reverie. She hooks her thumbs into the waistband of her sweatpants and panties and pushes them down in one smooth, decisive motion. She steps out of the puddle of fabric, completely naked, and climbs onto the bed, kneeling in the center. An offering. A challenge.

I shed my last piece of clothing and follow her. The mattress dips under my weight. For a moment, we just kneel facing each other, breathing the same air, our bodies a whisper apart. The sight of her, flushed and naked and waiting, is almost too much.

Then she surges forward, knocking me off balance. I fall onto my back, and she comes down on top of me, straddling my hips. Her heat settles against my length, and we both gasp at the contact. She braces her hands on my chest, her hair forming a dark curtain around our faces. Her nails, those same unpainted nails, press into my skin.

“No one knows,” she says, her voice thick with desire and something like grief. “This is ours. Just this.”

“Just this,” I agree, my hands sliding up her thighs to grip her waist, my thumbs finding the delicate, wing-like iliac crests of her pelvis.

She rises up, positioning me at her entrance. Her eyes lock with mine, holding that searing connection as she sinks down, taking me inside her in one slow, devastating slide.

She’s tight, impossibly hot, and so wet. A choked cry tears from her throat as she sheathes me completely, her inner muscles fluttering around me in a frantic, welcoming rhythm. I groan, my head falling back against the pillow, my fingers digging into her flesh. The feeling is beyond anything I imagined. It’s not just physical; it’s the culmination of years of forbidden longing, a dam breaking.

She begins to move, a rolling, grinding motion of her hips that steals the breath from my lungs. There’s nothing tentative about it. She rides me with a fierce, focused intensity, her head thrown back, her breasts bouncing with each thrust. The quiet room fills with the sounds of our joining: skin slapping against skin, ragged breaths, the soft, wet sounds of our bodies moving together. Her movements are not just passionate; they’re articulate, each roll and clench a word in a language of need we’d both been forced to forget.

I let her set the pace, let her use me for her release, watching the play of emotions on her face—ecstasy, concentration, a fleeting shadow of guilt that is quickly burned away by renewed pleasure. My hands roam over her body, learning the slopes and valleys I’ve only ever imagined. I pinch a nipple gently, and she moans, her rhythm stuttering.

“Harder,” she breathes, her eyes opening, glazed with lust. She grabs my wrist, guides my hand, shows me the pressure she wants. It’s not a request; it’s a demand. “Don’t be careful with me.”

I flip us over in one swift motion, pressing her into the mattress. Her legs wrap around my waist, heels digging into the small of my back with a pointed insistence. Now I’m in control, driving into her with deep, powerful strokes that make the headboard knock rhythmically against the wall. Each thrust is a punctuation mark on a sentence we’ve been writing for years. My mind, usually so ordered, fractures into pure sensation—the symphony of her gasps, the architecture of her body yielding beneath mine, the devastating rightness of our fit.

“Look at me,” I demand, and her eyes, heavy-lidded, find mine. In them, I see my own desperation reflected. The forbidden thrill. The absolute rightness of this wrong thing. “This is what you wanted,” I grunt, pounding into her, each impact a release of coiled tension. “This is what we both wanted.”

“Yes,” she hisses, her nails scoring down my back. The sharp pain is exquisite, a grounding counterpoint to the delirium. “God, yes. Don’t stop. Make me forget my own name.”

The coil of tension in my gut winds tighter and tighter. Her breaths become short, sharp cries. Her inner walls begin to clench rhythmically around me, a sweet, milking pressure that threatens to unravel me completely.

“Cole, I’m… I’m going to…”

“Come for me,” I growl into her ear, my voice raw. “Come on my cock, Ava. Let go. Let all of it go.”

Her orgasm hits her like a seizure. Her body arches off the bed, a silent scream on her lips as she shatters around me, her back bowing, every muscle taut. The sight of her coming undone, lost to pure sensation, is my undoing. With a few more ragged thrusts, my own climax tears through me, white-hot and obliterating. I bury my face in the curve of her neck, muffling my roar as I spill deep inside her, pulses of intense pleasure wracking my body until I’m spent, trembling, collapsed on top of her.

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We lie tangled in the damp sheets for a long time, the only sound our slowing breaths and the distant hum of the highway. The reality of what we’ve done begins to seep back in, cold and sobering. It doesn’t feel like release. It feels like a door has been kicked open, revealing a room we can never unsee.

She shifts, and I loosen my arm from around her, letting her roll onto her back. We stare at the ceiling, a cheap popcorn texture. The scent of sex and her perfume is overwhelming.

“Well,” she says finally, her voice hoarse, stripped bare. “That was…”

“Intense,” I finish.

“A fucking nuclear bomb dropped on five years of careful denial.” She brings a hand to her forehead. “I feel… drunk. And sober. All at once.”

I turn my head to look at her. A faint sheen of sweat glows on her skin in the light from the parking lot filtering through the blinds. She looks wrecked. Beautiful. Utterly conquered and yet more powerfully herself than I’ve ever seen her. The calm I expected isn’t there. In its place is a vibrating, messy aftermath. Satisfaction is there, a deep, physical hum in my bones, but it’s woven through with immediate, clawing regret—not for the act, but for the fact that it has to end, that it exists in this stolen vacuum.

“Do you regret it?” I ask, afraid of the answer.

She’s quiet for so long I think she won’t answer. “No,” she says finally. The word is firm, but followed by a shaky exhale. “I don’t regret the feeling. I regret… the context. The fact that I already miss it, and you’re still right here.” She turns her head, her eyes meeting mine. They’re clear now, but not peaceful. They’re haunted. “It doesn’t change anything,” she continues, the words sounding rehearsed, as if she’s trying to convince herself. “Tomorrow, we go back. We smile at brunch. We hug our parents. We go back to our lives. This was the release. Now we move on.”

The finality in her voice is a physical ache. The “one night” fantasy is crumbling, revealing the bleak morning after. But it’s not clean. It’s sticky with sweat and consequence.

“Is that what you want?” I push, even though I know I shouldn’t. My hand finds hers on the sheet between us. Our fingers don’t intertwine; they just rest against each other, a point of contact that feels more intimate now than anything that came before.

“It’s what has to be.” She doesn’t pull her hand away. “You know it is. This was our… denial, finally addressed. Now we box it up.”

It sounds so rational. So clean. But as I look at the red marks my stubble left on her inner thighs, the faint bite mark on her shoulder, the angry scratches on my back already beginning to sting, I know it’s a lie. This wasn’t getting something out of our systems. This was introducing a drug we’ll forever crave. The tension we thought we’d burned away has just been forged into a new shape: a shared, glowing secret that will sit between us at every future gathering, heavier than any silence.

She sits up abruptly, pulling the sheet around her shoulders like a shield. The vulnerability of the act is gone, replaced by a pragmatic distance that hurts more than a slap. “I should shower.”

She gets up, walks naked to the bathroom, a flash of pale skin in the dim room. She doesn’t look back. I hear the shower turn on. I lie there, the scent of her and sex clinging to the sheets, to me. The tangle of vows and family ties feels tighter than ever, but now it’s knotted with the memory of her body under mine, the exact sound she made when she came.

When she comes out, wrapped in a towel, her face freshly scrubbed of makeup and any lingering emotion, she looks like a stranger. The Ava from the bed is gone, tucked away behind a wall of practiced composure. Damp tendrils of hair cling to her neck.

“You should go,” she says softly, not meeting my eyes. She busies herself gathering her discarded clothes from the floor. “Before it gets too late. People might… notice.”

I dress in silence, each piece of clothing feeling like a layer of armor going back on. The tuxedo is a costume for a different man, a man who belongs at a wedding, not in the aftermath of this. When I’m fully dressed, I stand by the door, feeling absurdly formal.

She’s sitting on the edge of the bed, now wearing an oversized hotel robe, staring at her hands in her lap.

“Ava.”

She looks up. Her eyes are guarded, but in their grey depths, I see a reflection of my own turmoil—the satisfaction, the regret, the terrifying knowledge.

“This isn’t over,” I say, the words leaving me with a certainty that surprises us both. It’s not a threat or a promise. It’s just a fact, ugly and undeniable.

A flicker of something—hope, fear, a desperate kind of desire—crosses her face before she schools it into neutral blankness. She gives a small, tight shake of her head. “It has to be.”

I open the door. The sterile, cooled air of the hallway feels alien, a shock after the humid intensity of the room. “See you at brunch,” I say, the words a grotesque parody of normalcy, tasting like ash and betrayal.

“See you, Cole.”

I close the door softly behind me. The click of the latch is the loudest sound I’ve ever heard. I walk down the hallway, the echo of my own footsteps the only companion. The release was real, shattering and profound in its physical truth. But the denial? That’s just beginning a new, more complicated chapter. Because now we know exactly what we’re denying. We have the blueprint of each other’s pleasure, the coordinates to a place where family labels don’t exist. And that knowledge is a ghost that will now sit between us at every holiday table, a persistent, hungry silence in the space where our laughter should be. The wedding may be over, but the real entanglement, the one made of memory and consequence and impossible want, has only just begun its relentless, tightening pull.